Five Minute Friday {True}

20130927-080218.jpgWhatever is true, whatever is beautiful, whatever is lovely… think of these.

Am I being my true-self? Am I being authentic? Or am I doing, saying, being; who I think others want me to be? Am I proud of who my true self is, or afraid to show it? I know most days I am afraid . Afraid that if I said what was actually on my mind that people might not “like” what I have to hear. Afraid that they wouldn’t appreciate, acknowledge, even understand the true me.

Most days, I wear a mask. The intention is not to be fake, the intention is to protect. But at what cost? Am I losing myself in the process? Am I robbing my friends, family, neighbors, daily passer-byers with my true, genuine self? In truth, the answer is yes. Some days, most days, I chose my protective wall over my true and genuine self.

And the fear of being true still remains.

My prayer, my hope today, is to be even 1% more vulnerable. To take one step in the direction of being more true to myself, to others. How will I really ever know if I am truly loved by those around me if I never give them a chance to love the true me?

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No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation.

Unscripted. Unedited. Real.

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